Emotions taking me over...lol

Long time no blog! Been dealing with being pregnant...man it is becoming a beast! When I went to my first ultrasound at 17 weeks found out I am having twins! Lol, WOW!! So with two babies in the making, my emotions are KICKING MY BUTT and all I can do it sit here feeling crazy! I hate emotions, EGH!!!! lol. Lord be with me. But my family and friends are really helping me through. I love them. :)

Hope everything is well with everyone! I will try to blog more...especially since after the babies get here I will be PRETTY busy!!!

VMA Michael Jackson Tribute

I know I am late but I am just seeing this...I love it! Especially the part with Janet!! RIP Mike!!!!

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"The spectacular opening of the 2009 MTV Video Music Awards pays tribute to legendary entertainment icon Michael Jackson with a special appearance by his sister, Janet Jackson. (2009 MTV Video Music Awards)"

Peace and blessings people!

The Day...

This song is really touching me right now. Gives me the guy's perspective a bit. Makes me forget about the sickness and such and just smile....if only for a moment...

:)

Moving On Along...

So I heard my baby's heart beat for the first time this week. All I can say is wow...what an experience...

God bless!

New Beginnings! Second post for the evening....

Well I said I have been going through some things this last month well.....let me give you a little clue...

Got it yet!!??? Well yep! That is me....well that is not me in the picture lol but I found out that I have a little one on the way. Lord have I been going through it! Mentally and physically...been sick!!! Had to get some meds to help with that. Thank you Jesus for those!! Lol. Mentally...just trying to figure out am I ready for this?? Am I ready to raise a child???

I know I tend to over stress so my goal right now it to minimize all stress and just pray and let God do the rest. I was feeling really really sad at one time...have to realize my life hasn't stopped, I must keep moving and living. It's not easy but things are getting better each day and my outlook is getting brighter. :) Keep me in your prayers!!

Much love! God bless you!!

Gone Too Soon...

Yeah I know I am late but your girl has been seeing and going through somethings this last month or so....but I must say now RIP Michael Jackson! He is one of the reasons I love to perform! I will miss his music and energy!! Words really can't express man... :(

Take me away from here...

Sing it John Legend! Lol.

Hello all!

I have been feeling sick lately. I told a close friend of mine and he asked if I think stress is the reason I am always sick. I said yes, I really do. I have been fighting to maintain my sanity and that in itself is tiring and stressful.

This morning I was feeling horrible. I sat on my bed and begin to say to myself all of the things I am grateful for. This really worked for me, thank God! So I went to work.

It has been on my mind for a while, so I have put in a request for vacation. I want to be out by the water!!! :) My funds are pretty low so I probably won't be going anywhere. But I really need a break. Any suggestions on a vacation at home or in your local area that was relaxing ect.?

Thanks!

~God bless.~

Unearthing...

I am so anxious
Sometimes it makes me sick
Scared to believe what may come
I know fear is False Evidence Appearing Real and I am working on reminding myself of that daily
I'm scared of not having control
Even though I really don't have it anyway
Being comfortable is starting to feel way too comfortable to me
I start to picture what I want to be in my mind
Then my thoughts of doubt sneak in and make me feel weird, even bad for thinking about change and upward movement
Like I should stay where I am and settle...continue to be unfulfilled
This is nonsense...


I will work and volunteer where I am giving and living a fulfilled life and helping others to do the same!
I will write a book of poetry and publish it.
I will sing from my heart and love it!
I will dance from my soul and love it!
I will use the talents that God has given me and remember that all things are possible through Him.
I will know that I am a spiritual being having a human experience and not the other way around.
I will learn to be 'in-spirit', I will learn to be 'in-spirit', I will learn to be 'in-spirit'!
I will invision CLEARLY and without wavering what I want in and for my life and move through my fear(s).
I will pray and believe that the things that I want are already here. I will speak them into existence.
I will remove these shackles from my mind and heart and learn to live again!

I deserve to be happy, joyful, and excited about life!
I deserve all of the best and will give the best to others!
I deserve to be free!

What about you?

Peace.