Journey To Reinvention...

2011-03-15T09:42:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone!! Long time!! I have been busy busy busy with the babies and making inspirational jewelry!

Please visit my new blog!

ChariT's Inspirational Creations

Thanks so much!! Stay beautiful and blessed!!

God, Family, Life....My Greatest Inspirations!!

2010-10-04T22:58:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone!

I am feeling really good this evening! Today was a busy day. Running errands to Michaels and Hobby Lobby ect. to buy jewelry supplies before my fiance went to work. Started working on hoop earrings today...it was a little messy because I had to glue the beads together so they would stay in place...going to have to work on that.

Little man has his little teeth in (which is SO cute to me!! lol) and my baby girl is teething and chewing on everything lol. I love them so much. My little inspirations. :) I am still so amazed that I have a son AND a daughter! lol Wow.

Yesterday my fiance and I went to our first Saving Your Marriage Before It Starts class at church and we really enjoyed it. I definately recommend it. We were both skeptical because not many people we know do these types of things. But I am very glad that we are going and glad that he likes it too lol! ;)

Well onto tomorrow another wonderful day to take care of my babies and hopefully getting some jewelry making done! Take care everone!!

Sold and relisted today at http://www.charit.etsy.com/!

I haven't done one of these in a while...so back to it!

Living inspiration

Certainly you can inspire others with your words. Yet you can inspire other people even more with the way you live. By skillfully arguing and presenting your beliefs, you can convince others to consider adopting those beliefs. Yet you can express those beliefs even more convincingly by consistently applying them to your life.
With what you say, you can get some attention. With what you do, again and again, you can build real and lasting credibility.
If you wish to lift others up, the first step is to bring your own life to a higher level. Then you can bring along as many other people as you wish.
It's not selfish to follow your own authentic dreams and to create a life for yourself that's the best you can imagine. For in doing so, you also create outstanding opportunities along the way to be of real, meaningful service to others.
Your life has unique and immense value. Share that value far and wide by living your dreams and making your life a true inspiration.

-- Ralph Marston Read more: http://greatday.com/#ixzz11SdieeRn

Be blessed!!

Busy Busy Busy!

2010-09-29T23:16:00.000-07:00

Hello hello everyone!

So tired! Today was filled with online networking, doing housework, and taking care of the babies! Whew! They are sitting up and crawling now! It still amazes me to see them sitting up looking up at me lol! My little cuties. Little man has two teeth coming in at the bottom too! :)

Each day is new and different but I really need a SCHEDULE to balance everything before I go Crazy!! Someone one help me!!

New pieces added today at ChariT's Inspirational Creations!

Please stop by today!

Take care!

Remain Grateful!!

2010-09-23T15:03:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone! I hope all is well! My little ones are a little under the weather today, but still smiling! :) What a lesson in life...

Just found out a young man have stage 4 cancer...wow...made me realize how blessed I am and so are you! Thank you Lord for keeping my forever grateful!!!

Still making these inspirational earrings! Lol. About to start on some bracelets and send out discount codes so you can get yourself a pair or two! ;)

A few of my favorites:

All available to you at www.chariT.etsy.com!

Take care!!

Blessed and Highly favored!

2010-08-27T14:34:00.000-07:00

I am so blessed!
Blessed to be me
To have a loving fiancée
A loving and merciful God
Blessed to be a mother...times 2! lol (words cannot EVEN express!)
To have two precious little babies who love me
A lovely and supportive family
Friends who want the best for me
An unlimited and abundant life ahead of me....

What about you??

My Handmade Inspirational Jewelry Page!!!

2010-08-14T11:25:00.000-07:00

A few items I just posted!!

Yay me!! Get yourself a pair!!

Take care!

My First Inspirational Jewelry video!!

2010-08-13T12:50:00.000-07:00

Created this last night while I was half asleep! Lol! Enjoy!

I am SO EXCITED!!!!! God has really blessed me!!

www.chariT.etsy.com

Follow me at www.twitter.com/upliftsingdream!

Love ya! Be blessed!!

More Inspirational Jewelry! :)

2010-08-12T11:40:00.000-07:00

Some earrings I made last night/this morn!

I love making inspirational jewelry!

I am just getting started and can't wait to make more!

Should start selling these!

If you want a pair, let me know!

Be blessed!!

Faith, Hope, Love...Whoopie! Yay me!!

2010-08-11T15:57:00.000-07:00

My first pair of inspirational earrings...yay me!!! Lol. :)

Happy 6 months to my babies!!

2010-08-10T21:33:00.000-07:00

My babies are six months today! Yay! We went to the zoo. It was H-O-T!!!
Afterwards at home, I was watching them hold their heads up and look around and hold their bottles and thinking how far they have come. Remembering when they couldn't hold their head up or giggle ect. My babies are growing up awww....*tear* Lol. I am acting like they turned 6 years old instead of 6 months lol.
I love them so. They are truly miracles to me. Thank God for my precious babies. I am really enjoying this new 'sorority' called motherhood. Lol!

Take care beautiful people!!

Motivation and a day out with the kiddos!

2010-08-07T20:13:00.000-07:00

Had a great time out with the babies today! Everybody held them and spoiled them! lol
I usually wait until daddy gets home and then leave them with him to run errands, but I decided to give him a break and go socialize today. It was nice. :)

I got these in the mail today!!

I am REALLY getting excited!!! Lol! I haven't been this excited about anything besides the birth of my babies in a GOOD while! lol When my other supplies come in...it will be ON!!!

I am learning Ribbon in the Sky since I said I would start singing at weddings....trying to keep the momentum going!!!

....Just wrote a poem. Can't believe it! I haven't written in so long.

Have several board meeting to attend in the next few days! I love being a SAHM and volunteering! What a blessing!

Take care!!

My new hobby!

2010-08-06T23:03:00.000-07:00

My new hobby is...

Jewelry making!!

I am so excited and trying not to buy up everything!! Ready to make some beautiful and inspirational jewelry!! Waiting for more beads ect. to come in from ebay!

Yay me!!! BE ON THE LOOK OUT!! I will be posting pictures soon...

Be beautiful everyone!!

Last night

2010-08-06T22:47:00.000-07:00

We made love last night
Nice and slow
We made love last night
Until you made me glow
We made love last night
Just me and you
We made love last night
This time it felt real...true
We made love last night
Until I couldn't take it anymore
We made love last night
From the couch to the floor
We made love last night
Internally and externally connected
We made love last night
It was far beyond what I ever expected
We made love last night

We
   made
   sweet
   beautiful
   love...

We're engaged!!!

2010-08-05T14:25:00.000-07:00

My best friend and father of my children proposed to me Sunday night after coming home from work and making dinner! I felt like a shy little girl! Lol!! Still on a high from that! :)

Now on to talk to the jeweler about having a beautiful Amethyst ring made!! YAY ME!!

And get to planning this wedding...going to be doing alot of DIY because our budget it TIGHT!! Any suggestions are welcome!! Take care!!

God be with us!!

My New Goal

2010-08-01T14:40:00.000-07:00

"A woman's heart should be so lost in God that a man must seek Him in order to find her."

I really need to learn how to live this.

Let's Reuse, Reduce and Recycle!!

2010-08-01T14:28:00.000-07:00

Hello beautiful people!

Mama is tired! Lol!

The babies are sleep and I should be too but I am addicted to the internet...SWAPMAMAS and FREECYCLE! I am addicted to swapping things with mamas instead of throwing them away! It's great! It's a shame what people waste. I am just getting started with freecycle, but it is great to give things to people rather than throwing them away! I am becoming all about recycling, getting things for free, decluttering, and saving money! Especially with twins!!!

My next venture is creating custom inspirational jewelry and jewelry for mothers of multiples, I have ordered some items from ebay and waiting for them to come in so I can get started!! :) Also thinking about becoming an event/wedding singer...means I have to get serious about my voice again...Lord how am I going to do all of this with my two babies in tow!! I don't know! Lol!!

Hope all is well beautiful people!!

Stay beautiful and put a smile on someone's face today!!

Happy 5 months!!

2010-07-10T21:29:00.000-07:00

Happy five months to my babies today!
I can't believe it has been that long already! It is so great to watch my cute little ones rolling around, 'talking', playing with toys, and holding their heads up! To see their differences, it's amazing.

I love when I come home from running errands and they smile when I talk to them and they see me. What a wonderful feeling! :)

They are starting to kick each other and take each other's toys...Oh Lord!! Lol.
I am thinking of starting them on cereal soon....biting my nails...Lol!

I love my little cutie pies and I am so glad they are doing well and are in good health!
I love being a mother.
Never knew it felt so good. :)
God is wonderful to bless us with such a gift
Be a blessing to someone today folks!

Much love!!

My Love x 2 lol

2010-07-10T11:27:00.000-07:00

My precious babies

Taking care of both of you

Still making me smile

Hey hey hey!

2010-06-18T22:37:00.000-07:00

Momma x 2 is back! For a brief few minutes! Lol. I have been taking care of my two little lovelies who are almost 12lbs each! Yay!

They look so different than they did when they were born, it is crazy! I love my little babies. They are rolling all around, holding their heads up, and 'talking' their heads off! Lol. Taking care of two babies is something else!!

My mom is coming back for a visit...YES!! Lol. Love the help. They sleep thru the night now which is a blessing!

I have happened upon this site called www.swapmamas.com where you can swap things with other mothers rather than paying for things. I love it!!! :) I am a bargain hunting and SAH coupon clipping momma now! For real!!

That is my quick check in for now! I hope all is well with you all! Have to get ready for father's day with my man! :)

Be beautiful and blessed!!

Twinny Twin Twins!!

2010-04-28T13:38:00.000-07:00

Hello Blog word!

I have been pretty busy lately. Taking care of my little cuties and working. They were 5.1 and 5.13 lbs when they were born in February and now they are near 9- 10 lbs. I can't believe it! Their features have developed so much and they are starting to try to talk and they smile and laugh so much! I love it! :)

I was singing to them the other day and they were both just staring at me and smiling. WOW. What a wonderful feeling...lol (blushing).

Today is my last day at work...now on to the stay at home life! Trying my best not to worry about finances and the fact that I won't have health insurance....(biting my nails for real). I don't know...any advice??

Anyway, I look forward to being home with them even though I will be TIRED!!! Lol.

I went to a retreat last weekend and slept HARD!!!! LOL! I really needed that to have time to sit and talk to God and reconnect with him. It was also nice to fellowship with other Christian women. What a blessing. I recommend it highly to all of you.

I still missed my babies though!! Everybody kept asking about them...I was like they are doing well :( lol

Just wanted to post a quick update! I hope everyone is doing well and being a blessing!

Keep us in your prayers!!

My pookie poos! lol

2010-03-15T17:29:00.000-07:00

I am so tired! Whew! These babies are letting me have it! Well they aren't that bad...let me stop!

They are so precious. I see them changing so much and it has only been a little over a month!

I am getting that feeling of writing a good poem again...ooo wee. God grant me the time to be able to actually sit down and write it!

Thank God for my babe! He is watching the little ones right now. Just went and got a pedicure...a little 'me' time. :) Need to make that a part of my routine.

They are smiling now. It is so beautiful. :) I love it! lol

I am learning more and more what it means to be a mom. I am still in awe that I created these little cuties...wow...paranoid don't want anything to touch or hurt them...lol it is a trip.

I am growing more and more attached every day...got to love this...

Be easy everyone!!

Just Stopping By...

2010-03-05T16:22:00.000-08:00

So little time!! The babies are here! Have us so tired over here! But I love them lol!! Family is in town to help thank God!! Hope things are well with everyone!

Be blessed as always!!

Let's Get It!!

2010-02-09T20:59:00.000-08:00

So tomorrow is the BIG day! I have been feeling tired all day and then my mom just arrived with all of this baby stuff!! Now all of a sudden I am getting excited!! Strange huh?? Lol!

God be with us tomorrow!!

~ Be blessed everyone!! ~

The Countdown...

2010-02-04T12:10:00.000-08:00

Sitting here thinking about how I miss blogging and reading blogs. Just visited JAC’s blog. Love it. Wishing her God’s blessing on her journey!!
Need to get back on my spiritual game, for real. Worrying about things that I know God will take care of…a weakness of mine. He has always taken care of me…why do I continue to doubt??

Sitting here with my big belly, lol. The little ones holding strong almost 38 weeks! I am hoping for a safe and healthy delivery for all 3 of us. My little girl is breeched…smh…but we will see what happens come delivery time. It’s getting close!!! Ooo wee!!

I was sitting over here feeling sad and then I started watching This Is It. It is amazing how MJ inspires me even during my pregnancy blues. Lol, love that man’s musicality! Man. I miss performing so much! Thriller! Oh my bad. I’m back.
Want to clean up but these babies have me SOOO tired!!! That sucks! I feel so helpless sometimes…guess I should be happy to have some quiet time and nothing to do…

Keep us in your prayers!!

Any good scriptures on motherhood, please share! Thanks!

~ Be blessed!! ~

The Way of the World...

2010-02-01T14:06:00.000-08:00

Man, I am tired! Made it to 37 weeks wow! Tired...tired...tired...lol.
Just learned our company was sold to someone else and now I could be a contract employee...whoa how the world changes.
Still blessed though. Going to pray and claim the blessings that God has for us to come. Isaiah 30:18.
Been sitting around the house BORED!!! Lol. Can't go anywhwere by myself...Little energy to do anything. Oh well, glad my babies are ok. Need to find something to do while I have some free time!! lol

Be blessed everyone!!

What to do now...

2010-01-17T15:06:00.001-08:00

So I am on maternity leave now. Trying not to sleep the whole day away! Lol.

Wondering what now and afraid of the labor soon to come...man oh man...(biting my nails...) lol.

Got my hair done so I won't have to worry about that when the babies get here. :)

Not much to say...just stopping by to say hi...

About to go get something to eat! I'm hungry!!

Be blessed everyone!!

Out with the Old, In with the New...

2009-12-31T09:07:00.000-08:00

So everyone is excited about the new year. That's good. I just want to get some r-e-s-t! Lol. Should be starting maternity leave in a few weeks and I will be bored out of my mind! Lol. But that's good as long as the babies stay in here and keep on cooking!

Want to write another poem about the babies....but a sister is tired all of the time shoot! :-/

Hopefully God will bless me with something soon.

Ready to get this baby furniture in the house so I can have something physical to see besides my stomach! lol. My friend just had her baby girl and I need to go visit her! Babies are so precious. :)

I love my man who gets on my nerves cause he takes such good care of me. :) lol. He really is a sweetie.

Ready for this 3 day weekend and after that working less days during the week....yay! lol. God is good.

Not much to say just wanted to stop by and tell you guys to be blessed and safe and enjoy your holiday!!

A message for the New Year:

Explore new possibilities
There are always plenty of possibilities, with new ones being born every moment. On a regular basis, pick a new possibility and explore it fully.
Turn down a road you've never traveled before, and find out what's there. Be curious, and let your curiosity lead you in the direction of new discoveries.
Inject some fresh, new experiences into your life. Challenge yourself and add richness to your life by stepping outside your regular routine.
Surprise your senses with things you've never experienced before. Wake up your spirit by uncovering previously hidden treasures in your world.
Add to life's list of joys. Give new depth and richness to your perspective.
The good things in your life are yours now because there was a time when you chose to find them. Explore some new possibilities, and there is much new value you can find.
-- Ralph Marston
Read more:http://greatday.com/#ixzz0bHtLb0Uj

Random thoughts of a Mother to Be...

2009-12-18T07:44:00.000-08:00

Sitting here with my hand on my stomach. It's acting up a bit this morn...as usual. Lol.
Wishing it would go away...wondering who my little angels will act more like...me or their dad...hopefully me. Lol j/k.

I just think it is amazing that a child (children) are formed in the womb of their mother. When I start feeling down I think about this.
So much going on in my mind...
Will they be born at a good weight, will they be healthy, am I eating enough, will we have enough money...
Can I really do this??
Don't stress girl it's not good for the babies...being pregnant is a trip.

My back was hurting last night and my babe gave me a back rub. Thank God for him! lol

Seems so close, yet far away. I'm scared to give birth shoot! Lol
Have alot of praying to do!!
Ready to take maternity leave though...
Sitting at this desk with the keyboard almost on top of my stomach! Smh...
Can't believe I will be/am the mother of twins. Seems so crazy to me! But it is what it is.
That is enough randomness for now!

Hope all is blessed with you and yours!

Happy Holidays folks! Love ya!

First Baby Poem...

2009-12-09T15:26:00.000-08:00

A poem I wrote a few months ago...before I knew there were two...lol

Creation: The Beginning…

I heard your heart beat for the first time
and my soul smiled all the way to my eyes
All the worry and sadness floated away
Replaced by wonderment and surprise
Appreciation for this miracle growing inside
A gift of life envisioned and by grace created by God
Holding my breath so I could take it all in
Seems my own heart stopped for a bit
As tears welled up I smiled wide
And breathed in deep
Falling in love with this beautiful creation inside of me

6 months and counting...

2009-11-08T16:12:00.000-08:00

Whew. I have been tired tired tired today. These babies taking my energy lol. I went to see my line sister who just had a little boy this week. He is so precious!! :D

I saw This Is It last weekend...mannnnn...RIP Mike!! I want to see it again.

Still getting used to the idea that so much is about to change in my life and dealing with these crazy emotions. I will NOT miss this after I have the babies!! lol.

I am excited about our baby shower coming up...gifts and gifts!! Yay! lol. Wishing I could work less hours at work or something...shoot.

Heard a great sermon at church today. :D So glad I went.

Working on my faith because I believe this pregnancy has been one of the great tests of my life... has me thinking about SO many things...guess I better get ready for more to come! LOL.

Hope things are well and blessed with you all!!

~My prayers go up for those affected by the shootings in Fort Hood, Texas.~

Emotions taking me over...lol

2009-10-17T18:40:00.000-07:00

Long time no blog! Been dealing with being pregnant...man it is becoming a beast! When I went to my first ultrasound at 17 weeks found out I am having twins! Lol, WOW!! So with two babies in the making, my emotions are KICKING MY BUTT and all I can do it sit here feeling crazy! I hate emotions, EGH!!!! lol. Lord be with me. But my family and friends are really helping me through. I love them. :)

Hope everything is well with everyone! I will try to blog more...especially since after the babies get here I will be PRETTY busy!!!

VMA Michael Jackson Tribute

2009-09-25T07:22:00.000-07:00

I know I am late but I am just seeing this...I love it! Especially the part with Janet!! RIP Mike!!!!

New Music - More Music Videos

"The spectacular opening of the 2009 MTV Video Music Awards pays tribute to legendary entertainment icon Michael Jackson with a special appearance by his sister, Janet Jackson. (2009 MTV Video Music Awards)"

Peace and blessings people!

The Day...

2009-09-04T19:24:00.000-07:00

This song is really touching me right now. Gives me the guy's perspective a bit. Makes me forget about the sickness and such and just smile....if only for a moment...

Moving On Along...

2009-08-21T18:31:00.001-07:00

So I heard my baby's heart beat for the first time this week. All I can say is wow...what an experience...

God bless!

New Beginnings! Second post for the evening....

2009-08-05T19:37:00.000-07:00

Well I said I have been going through some things this last month well.....let me give you a little clue...

Got it yet!!??? Well yep! That is me....well that is not me in the picture lol but I found out that I have a little one on the way. Lord have I been going through it! Mentally and physically...been sick!!! Had to get some meds to help with that. Thank you Jesus for those!! Lol. Mentally...just trying to figure out am I ready for this?? Am I ready to raise a child???

I know I tend to over stress so my goal right now it to minimize all stress and just pray and let God do the rest. I was feeling really really sad at one time...have to realize my life hasn't stopped, I must keep moving and living. It's not easy but things are getting better each day and my outlook is getting brighter. :) Keep me in your prayers!!

Much love! God bless you!!

Gone Too Soon...

2009-08-05T19:22:00.000-07:00

Yeah I know I am late but your girl has been seeing and going through somethings this last month or so....but I must say now RIP Michael Jackson! He is one of the reasons I love to perform! I will miss his music and energy!! Words really can't express man... :(

Take me away from here...

2009-06-24T14:42:00.000-07:00

Sing it John Legend! Lol.

Hello all!

I have been feeling sick lately. I told a close friend of mine and he asked if I think stress is the reason I am always sick. I said yes, I really do. I have been fighting to maintain my sanity and that in itself is tiring and stressful.

This morning I was feeling horrible. I sat on my bed and begin to say to myself all of the things I am grateful for. This really worked for me, thank God! So I went to work.

It has been on my mind for a while, so I have put in a request for vacation. I want to be out by the water!!! :) My funds are pretty low so I probably won't be going anywhere. But I really need a break. Any suggestions on a vacation at home or in your local area that was relaxing ect.?

Thanks!

~God bless.~

Unearthing...

2009-06-11T09:37:00.000-07:00

I am so anxious
Sometimes it makes me sick
Scared to believe what may come
I know fear is False Evidence Appearing Real and I am working on reminding myself of that daily
I'm scared of not having control
Even though I really don't have it anyway
Being comfortable is starting to feel way too comfortable to me
I start to picture what I want to be in my mind
Then my thoughts of doubt sneak in and make me feel weird, even bad for thinking about change and upward movement
Like I should stay where I am and settle...continue to be unfulfilled
This is nonsense...

I will work and volunteer where I am giving and living a fulfilled life and helping others to do the same!
I will write a book of poetry and publish it.
I will sing from my heart and love it!
I will dance from my soul and love it!
I will use the talents that God has given me and remember that all things are possible through Him.
I will know that I am a spiritual being having a human experience and not the other way around.
I will learn to be 'in-spirit', I will learn to be 'in-spirit', I will learn to be 'in-spirit'!
I will invision CLEARLY and without wavering what I want in and for my life and move through my fear(s).
I will pray and believe that the things that I want are already here. I will speak them into existence.
I will remove these shackles from my mind and heart and learn to live again!

I deserve to be happy, joyful, and excited about life!
I deserve all of the best and will give the best to others!
I deserve to be free!

What about you?

Peace.

Passing of a Musical Legend: Prof. George Edwards

2009-06-05T20:40:00.000-07:00

Prairie View Band Director Remembered
Updated: Friday, 05 Jun 2009, 9:45 PM CDT
Published : Friday, 05 Jun 2009, 6:31 PM CDT

Hundreds of people came together Friday to say goodbye to a beloved faculty member at Prairie View A&M University.

Students and alumni from the school's famous marching storm band performed Friday at the funeral of professor George Edwards. He directed the band for 30 years before dying in a car crash last week.

Congresswoman Sheila Jackson Lee described Edwards as a great American.

A highlight of Edwards career came earlier this year when the marching storm band became the first to participate in the Rose Parade pilot program, which includes bands from historically black colleges and universities.

FOX 26 Photojournalist Greg Ramirez documented the service.
Hundreds of people came together today to say goodbye to a beloved faculty member at Prairie View A&M University. Resource: http://www.myfoxhouston.com/dpp/video/090506_band_director_funeral

Find more videos like this on bandhead.org

**Another video clip is available from kbtx at http://www.kbtx.com/local/headlines/47107202.html

I always enjoyed listening to the Marching Storm during my college years!

In remembrance of you, I will strive to be the best musician I can be.

R.I.P. Prof. Edwards.

PV.....U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Boy don't you know...

2009-05-23T19:32:00.000-07:00

You're my baby...my lover my baby...That song is really in my head right now!

So glad to have a 3 day weekend! Yayyyy!! Rest is SO wonderful lol and God is SO good! I have started taking some classes to get my side hustle on! Wanting to join this church choir. Have to keep my mind and feet moving. Not let my current situation keep me down. Remembering that I am the master of my thoughts and I create my future. I will have what I want if only I believe. I am a beautiful child of God who is capable of ANYTHING! And so are you! ;)

Going to take this time to study and listen to my 4 Day Hour Work Week and 7 Habits of Successful People audio books. Maybe write a little bit.

Did I mention that I love my baby!? Lol, well yes I do. It still scares me sometimes...lol so crazy.

You love me
No thought for yourself
My eyes smile

That's how I feel about him right now, lol.

I inhale
And your love fills me
warming my heart....

Sounds like a poem I need to finish...hmmm.

Hope things are well with you all!

Have a wonderful and restful memorial weekend!!

You Are What You Think About...

2009-05-10T12:58:00.000-07:00

Hello my beautiful people!!! I hope that things are wonderful and lovely with you!

High energy huh? lol

I am blessed to be here today and working on replacing my negative thoughts with positive ones. I am looking to get into event planning and have been networking a bit and looking for resources to learn from (any suggestions??). Something pretty new for me! Boy I tell ya, after being stuck in a certain place for a while it is a BEAST working your way out. It seems God is bringing it together for me though, people telling me to give them a call and help them with projects. Sounds good to me! All I need to do now is follow through and succeed! (Lol sounds like a poem...)

The Secret has helped me to start to understand that we create our own reality with our thoughts, rather we realize it or not. So it is really time for me to change my thinking or I will continue to stay just where I am. Which is a no no! lol

I am actually excited about going to church now and actively being involved. Man I have been praying for that! So glad it is coming together because that is really step one I believe in getting everything else in my life together. I really need to blog more I am just so tired all of the time. :(
This will change...

Keep me in your prayers that I will follow through with the things that God has given me to do.

and....

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO THE LADIES OUT THERE!!!

God bless you all.

Keep it Pushin!!

2009-04-26T20:12:00.000-07:00

...In Your presence is fullness of joy; In Your right hand there are pleasures forever.

Hello all! I have been busy this last weekend and a bit more also this month. My little sis got married! awwwww. :)

When is my turn....who knows!? lol

Still going strong on www.thesisterhood.ning.com and we are just ending a 30 day awakening series. Focusing on living a life of forgiveness, purpose, and clarity ect. I believe I will be taking these same things and applying them next month because it is time to make some moves!! lol

Met with my mentor last month, should be meeting again sometime soon. Gotta have some good things to report!!

On a mission to start really doing something with the natural black hair of mine and I just joined http://www.nappturality.com so we will see what comes from this!! Got to be the most beautiful brown Queen I can be! ;) lol

Hope all is well with everyone!!

From my Ralph corner:

Treasure that is already yours

Before you seek more, ask yourself this. Are you doing all you can with what you already have?

Gratitude is a powerful and undeniable way to bring more abundance into your life. By making full use of what you have, you're expressing gratitude in a sincere and effective way.

Your life already has richness that you have not yet discovered. But if you're constantly wanting more, you'll never even realize that richness is there.

This very moment is filled with joys that are waiting to be experienced. This very day is full of beauty that is waiting to be seen and appreciated.

Decide today to discover some new treasure that is already yours. Instead of striving for more, fully accept and celebrate what already is.

Abundance is all around you. See it and it is yours.
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Above and beyond

A little extra effort can bring your life to a much higher level. Once you've done what must be done, do a little more.

The distance you must travel to get from ordinary to outstanding is not really that far. Yet the benefits of going that extra distance are enormous.

You have something very special and original to give to life. Let the best that you are flow out from you with every effort, in every situation.

There is an abundance to which you're already connected. Do the work and put forth the commitment to fully express that abundance through the outcomes you achieve.

The opportunity to make a difference is one of life's greatest blessings. Seize that opportunity and live it with every breath you take.

Know the magnificent joy that effort can bring, and you'll always be eager for more. Go above and beyond, and you'll find it to be a truly wonderful place.

-- Ralph Marston

Have a great one and live purposely!!!

An Awakening...

2009-04-04T17:11:00.000-07:00

Hola mama citas! Did I spell that right? lol

I have been in a semi world wind it seems. Happy , then really sad, then just neutral. It's weird. Dealing with the journey of being in a relationship. Oooo wee. Still love my CRAZY baby though. Lol. I'm learning patience through this journey though.

So anxious about something...ready to jump and move...NOW! But I know God moves in his own time. So each and every day I am working to remember that and hopefully to get rid of this anxiety. For real. Ya'll pray for me please.

I want all of those around me to be prosperous and really love themselves. But the best teacher is a good example. So I am working on eating better and thinking positively. My sistas check out http://thesisterhood.ning.com/ when you have time.

Well I am currently on a 30 day journey to change my life and thought process to things positive. God be with me! I have been reviewing The Secret (by Rhonda Byrne) again and how important it is to have positive thoughts to attract positive things. I sat down and realized that negative thoughts and feelings are part of my life DAILY and that REALLY REALLY needs to change. It just seems so hard because that is what I am used to. It's crazy. So, we will see....

I was telling my home girl how I felt and this is what she said to me:

just always remember whose u are and that he is royalty which makes u royalty
and u are a woman of God and ur worth is far about rubies so nothing is better than you
and that if he be for you he is more than all things against you
remember those things when ur down and u will lift urself right back up

Man I love my friends!!!! :D

I miss my man...haven't seen him this week, probably won't see him until next weekend...that sucks.

See there goes another negative thought! lol

A few words from Ralph:

Yes, you are ready

There is no limit to the number of ways in which you can create real value. Breathe deeply, smile lovingly, and just do it. The moment you're in is plenty. The place where you are is an ideal place from which to move forward. Instead of punishing yourself with regret, delight yourself with the possibilities. Get busy creating and living a beautiful now. Yes, you are ready to be your best. Let go of the doubts and let it happen. You can create your very own future, and you are doing so even now. Take this opportunity to fill it with what you know to be good and valuable and meaningful. There is immense beauty in you that you have not yet seen. Share it with the world and live the joy of discovery as that beauty continues to unfold.

Think a new thought

Think a new thought, and the whole world changes in front of your eyes. Adopt a new perspective, and you enter a new reality. What seems to be out there is precisely your perception and interpretation of what's out there. And as such, you can truly make it whatever you choose. At your core is a purpose that provides an endless source of energy. It is new and bright and sparkling in every moment. Seek to know the truth of that purpose, and notice how it feels so very right. Let it be the lens through which you see all else. Know where you are coming from, and you will know where to go. Know where to go, and you will be there.

-- Ralph Marston

What I'm jammin:

Tell Him - Lauryn Hill

~Have a GREAT weekend!!!~

Where my Head is at...

2009-03-30T20:59:00.000-07:00

What about me?

You say you need time to think

To figure things out

Time to collect all of the pieces

Get it all together

But where do I fit in?

Where is my piece in the puzzle...?

Knuck if You Buck!

2009-03-18T12:53:00.000-07:00

Soooooo my coworker basically tried to tell me my man is ugly without actually saying it. Girrrrrllllll don't you make meeeee....Woo saaaaa!! LOL. The devil is at work I tell ya!

Anyway to the more important thoughts of the day, my hunny bun (lol) will be going to meet the fam this weekend. I is scarrrrrred. Lol.

My sister is having her bridal shower and my precious niece is turning 2! :D I'm a proud auntee!! I didn't make it to her 1st birthday party because I was in an accident so I am pretty excited! Got her some cute little clothes!! :) I love it. Man, little blessings...

I am still jammin the playlist from my previous post in my head!! Lol, yeah...

I have an interview for a poetry documentary tomorrow....little ole me... awwww lol.

So much on my mind! I have been inspiring a few people lately. That really makes me smile. God's blessing flowing down. :)

My babe and I are are going to playdate houston weekend after next. Yay! I've never been. It should be fun!

I feel like writing a poem...I may want to hop to it.

Going to work on making this my daily action plan:

Above and beyond

A little extra effort can bring your life to a much higher level.

Once you've done what must be done, do a little more. The distance you must travel to get from ordinary to outstanding is not really that far. Yet the benefits of going that extra distance are enormous.

You have something very special and original to give to life. Let the best that you are flow out from you with every effort, in every situation.

There is an abundance to which you're already connected. Do the work and put forth the commitment to fully express that abundance through the outcomes you achieve. The opportunity to make a difference is one of life's greatest blessings.

Seize that opportunity and live it with every breath you take. Know the magnificent joy that effort can bring, and you'll always be eager for more.

Go above and beyond, and you'll find it to be a truly wonderful place. -- Ralph Marston

Quote for the day:

To be what we are, and to become what we are capable of becoming, is the only end in life. -Robert Louis Stevenson

Much love and many blessings!!

Ode to you...

2009-03-15T14:59:00.000-07:00

Take a listen...(If there is a snippet, select 'play full song here' under the title)

So Beautiful - Musiq Soulchild

Brown Skin - India Arie

everytime i close my eyes - artist

Speechless - Beyonce

For You - Kenny Lattimore

Take Care Of U - Shanice

Make Ya Feel Beautiful - Ruben Studdard

Here I Stand - Usher

Dont say no, just say yes - Avant

Ill Make Love To You - Boyz II Men

no words - Syleena Johnson

Heaven - Solo

Ill Never Let You Go - Faith evans

ask and Ill do - Silk

Words - Anthony David Feat. India Arie

Halo - Beyonce

Youre Just too Good to Be True - Lauryn Hill

Just a little short dedication cause it was on my mind and I love and appreciate you.

Hellos!

2009-03-10T19:30:00.000-07:00

Heyyyyyyyy everybodayyyyyyy. So your girl has been blessed to have my own personal computer now! So I should be able to hop on more often....yay!

I am so tired right now. Got my babe on my mind but can't cake right now cause he is studying. Lol. I feel so blessed right now. Man.

Things aren't exactly how I would like them to be but I am learning to think more positively! Making things happen now yay! To come: photo shoots, poetry documentary ect....yeah babay!

Anyways holla back! Be blessed people!

Love ya!

My Earthday...yeahhhhhhh!!!!!

2009-02-13T06:22:00.000-08:00

Long time no blog!!!!!

I am excited cause it is my birthday weekend! Yayyyyyyy!!! Go shawty it's your birthday, we gonna party like it's your birthday!! Leaving early today and have monday off as well, so let's just say I am grateful!! I'm Ret to parrrtayyyyyy!!!!! :)

I am blessed to have a man now...that's right a M-A-N, not a boy. Lol. Anyways he has some surprises in store for me starting today....can I say I am flattered!????

HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!!! :)

Hope things are well with everyone and God has been blessing you. Haven't had much time to read or write any blogs just had to jump on here really quick and say HI!!!

Oh yeah, Chris Brown needs his tail WHOOOPED!!!!! That is such a shame man. Hope he gets some help...

From my boy Ralph:

Give kindness, and it keeps going. Give kindness, and it continues long past the original expression.
Kindness inspires more kindness. A little bit of kindness can go a long, long way.
But why stop with just a little? Offer great kindness, again and again, and you truly change the world.
Think of how good it feels when someone is kind to you. Make it your goal to pass that feeling along to others every chance you get.
Give kindness and something amazing happens. Your own strength, confidence and joy will increase.
Add some kindness to your world today. And see the positive benefits as it continues to grow beyond you.

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Accomplishment is contagious. Catch it from yourself.
Experience how great it feels to accomplish a little bit. And you'll find yourself going for more and more.
Know the confidence that comes from being able to get something done. And you'll realize that anything is within your reach.
You are immensely creative and productive and effective in your own special way. Continue to examine, explore, and refine your understanding of the passion that lives at your very core.
Put some time into doing what feels right and natural and joyful for you. You'll be amazed and delighted at what you can accomplish.
Effort is truly a joy when it aligns with your purpose. Find that purpose, make that effort, and get yourself passionately hooked on accomplishment.
-- Ralph Marston

I almost forgot, HAPPY LOVE DAY PEOPLE!!! Go show someone you care!

Much love! Peace out!!

Time to Play Questions...How Many Can You Answer??

2009-01-14T09:26:00.000-08:00

Hello everyone!!! Feeling pretty good today! Been writing out some action plans and actually acting on them! lol Thinking about getting into event planning and video editing (which is a old pasttime of mine). Trying to find some creative ways to make money with my singing, dancing, and writing skills....any suggestions??

Feeling quite motivated and loving it! It's been a long time coming!! Also, I use Olive Oil root stimulator I believe it is but my scalp still gets flaky pretty fast. People are telling me to use sulfur but that stuff STICKS. Any suggestions for your girl?

Getting off early today so I am happy yay! God blessed me with a financial blessing and my sister is out of the hospital again. Yay yay! :) Are ya'll ready for January 20th!? I am and it's my sisters' birthday too!

Love is a crazzzzy thing! Have you read my new prose on Blogger's Delight?? If not go read it! Thanks! :)

A few words from Ralph:

The power of feelings

You can feel good for no reason at all. In fact, you can choose to feel any way you wish at any time and in any situation.
Whatever you desire, you desire because of the way you think it will make you feel. Whatever you avoid, you avoid because you don't wish to experience the feelings that you assume it will bring.
Yet the fact is that your feelings are not controlled by your circumstances. Those feelings are determined by how you choose to respond to various situations and events.
Your feelings in any moment are yours to choose. You can choose to feel the wonderful reality of your most treasured dreams long before those dreams have been fully achieved.
And when you do, you put yourself in a positive, powerful place from which you can surely make those dreams real. When you feel good for no reason, you immediately begin to create the reasons.
Choose each day to feel the way you wish to feel, no matter what is going on around you. And let your feelings pull you toward the fulfillment of your destiny.

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Choose a destination

In order to make progress, you must know exactly where you intend to go. Choose a clear and specific destination, and then you can get busy going there.
Having a vague idea of where you want to go is not going to do you any good. Know exactly where you desire to be and you're already well on your way there.
The dreams that are compelling are the dreams that will motivate you to take whatever action is necessary. And the most compelling dreams are the ones with rich and meaningful details.
The goals you will achieve are the goals you can fully describe. Give real life and substance to your goals and you'll quickly begin to realize them.
You can choose any destination you wish for your life. So choose one that thrills you and compels you to be the best you can be.
Delight in the rich details of where you are headed. And you'll work your way steadily there.

-- Ralph Marston

Last Question: What can you do today to bless somebody??

Not much to say today, just checking in!

HAPPY '09 EVERYONE!!!

Are You Living Simply??

2009-01-05T15:58:00.001-08:00

Feeling good today! Almost over this cold...yay God! Thinking quite positive for the '09! Cleaned my house....yes! Need to donate some more stuff.

Been thinking about my anxiety about money and it stresses me too much. Have always been a person who loves nature and being self sufficient. So I figure it is time to get back to it. Been reading up on voluntary simplicity and simply living. You should check it out.

Here are some sites/blogs I came across:
http://adventuresinvoluntarysimplicity.blogspot.com/

http://frugalforlife.blogspot.com/2008/11/updated-25-ways-i-save-money.html

I have been doing things like shopping at half price books, renting movies from the library, researching free classes and free events, using coupons, cooking at home, taking shorter showers ect. Need to stick closer to my budget though! lol

What about you??

Randomnesses of Today the Last of 08!

2008-12-30T14:57:00.000-08:00

Sooo I think I am getting a sore throat and it SUCKS! I hate losing my voice man. Guess God is trying to tell me something....If you don't use it you will lose it...
I'm thinking about joining Toastmasters. What do you guys think?
You know what I don't like about relationships....having to be mature! Dang it!! uhhh. lol
I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas! Tis the season!
I think I don't perform so I won't have haters.... :-/
'09 is going to be different and much better dang it! I have been in this comfortable valley for farrrr too long!!
You know what, I have alot a poems! Yay me.
I love music! I'm gonna marry it! lol
I was in a wedding on Sunday (my first)...used to be allergic to those things...lol. But forreal it was beautiful :)
I so want to get the internet at home...but can I afford it?
Hope I find something fun to do for New Years...

From my boy Rizalph!

Now is Your Moment

It is now, and now is different. Even though you may have experienced an overwhelming amount of disappointment in the past, the past is over.
Perhaps you've failed again and again. Now is different.
That was then and this is now. Now you have the opportunity to move forward.
Now you can do what you've never been able to do before. Now you can follow through on the things you've been unable or unwilling to do in the past.
Now is your moment to live. Now is the time to act.
Now is when you can truly make a difference. Stand up, step forward and live.

-- Ralph Marston

**Current '09 quotes that I read today:**

A journey of a thousand miles begins with one step.
Your vision becomes clear when you look inside your heart.
You become what you think about.
A bird does not sing because it has an answer, it sings because it has a song.

Love those!

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE!!! STEP YOUR GAME UP AND MAKE THIS A GOOD ONE!

GOD BLESS!

Guess What!?

2008-12-09T21:39:00.000-08:00

I know I am really late on this, but guess what you guys!?? I have been named an Honest Blogger by Ms. J. to the A. C.! Thanks hun! Love you!

So as it goes, I'm supposed to nominate 7 other blogs that I believe are deserving of this award. On your free time, check them out.

1. Muze....love her poetry and honesty

2. J.A.C......this girl shoots from the heart, love it

3. T.C. (Golden)......love her encouraging words and life stories

4. Don ......that boy is a fool with it!

5. Jtub.....from how to remedies to black history facts, he is on it

6. Miz...she has a beatiful soul to me yay lol

7. Ms. Fullcomplex(can I get a witness)...her page speaks to me :) lol 4real

I do love all of my fellow bloggers so much love to you all!

Ok, next I must list [if you can and or dare] at least ten honest things about yourself. Soooo here they are:

1. I am so afraid of failing myself it is freaking ridiculous!! That is why I am stuck where I am right now.

2. I love him so much and I actually trust him and it scares me, I mean really scares me!

3. I am scared for things to go right.... :-/

4. Being treated like the beautiful woman that I am feels foreign to me....go figure.

5. I am really freaky ya'll, I mean really....freaky.

6. I am afraid of letting go and not having control.

7. I really need to learn how to have faith and stop living with an anxious heart.

8. When I think about all God has done for me, I can't help but cry.

9. I am afraid of my potential..........I'm a punk! lol jk

10. And most of all.....I miss blogging!!!! Can ya'll send me some money each month so that I can have the internet at home? LOL!!! jk folks.

And now a word from Ralph:

Experience today.

Today you have the opportunity for a great experience. Today you have the undeniable chance to really live.
It is up to you to take advantage of that opportunity. It is up to you to make the most of this day, and to live the great, unique experience this day offers.
Perhaps you'll conclude that there are too many problems keeping you from experiencing a great day, yet that would be an unfortunate mistake. For even in the face of overwhelming problems and obstacles, today can be a truly unique and positive experience.
In fact, those problems can play a very positive role in the great experience of this day. By working your way through whatever may come along, you build a greater appreciation for all the goodness that surrounds you.
You also build your confidence, strength and effectiveness to higher and higher levels. And that opens the doors to vast new areas of opportunity and achievement.
Today is here now, so go ahead and jump into it with everything you have. Experience the richness of this day, and you'll carry its unique value with you always.
-- Ralph Marston

Have a good one ya'll!

Ask... believe... receive...

2008-11-30T14:04:00.000-08:00

Long time no type...again! lol

Hope everyone is enjoying their Thanksgiving holiday!!!

This is an email I received today:

Ask... believe... receive...

While it seems simple enough, activating the Law of Attraction is
not necessarily a walk in the park. You must own it and take
responsibility for every step of the process.

First, there's the responsibility that comes with asking. When you
ask the universe for something, you must ask for something that's
in alignment with who you are and what you're willing to
contribute back to the planet.

Your gifts are not for you to keep -- they're given to you with
other people in mind. When you're given a gift, the real question is,
who are you going to bless with that gift?

When I was in college, I realized in a moment of prayer that my
gift of speech wasn't about me. My gift of speaking and inspiration
came to me and through me to touch someone else.

So when you ask for something from the universe, remember, it's
coming to you and through you to bless someone else.

Secondly, when you make a request to the universe, you must
eliminate all doubt. The universe is not to be doubted. God is not
to be doubted.

You must believe with unwavering faith that the universe will
fulfill your desires when you are ready to receive them.

Which means, finally, that you must give yourself permission to
receive.

How many opportunities have passed you by because either you
weren't ready to receive or you didn't feel worthy to receive?

There was a time when I was asking the universe for love. I
believed I wanted love. Yet when people wanted to love me, I
deflected their intentions and affections, because I wasn't ready to
receive love.

It's your responsibility to activate all three steps of the Law of
Attraction -- and all at the same time -- because without even one
working, all invariably fail.

So when you ask... ask for things that are in alignment with you
are... and ask to serve the universe.

When you believe... believe as if it is so... have unwavering faith
in relationship to it.

Finally, be ready to receive... give yourself personal permission to
own, embrace, and celebrate whatever greatness the universe is
bringing to you as a result of your request.

-Lisa Nichols

She is cold with it....google the Law of Attraction when you have time!

Miss you guys!

Have a good one folks!

Looooong time!!!

2008-11-18T13:29:00.000-08:00

Mannnn I have missed blogging sooooooooo much! lol

We had some people let go at the jo and I have been busy, busy, busy!

Hopefully I can take some time this weekend and catch up on my favorite bloggers!

Hope everything is well with you!

Quick Quote for the day:

'All love that has not friendship for its base, is like a mansion built upon the sand.' -Ella Wheeler Wilcox

Smile!! :D

Peaces!

Words Cannot Express...

2008-11-06T07:42:00.000-08:00

You better Vote OBAMA!!!!

Words cannot truly express how proud I am of our current President elect and his family (they are SO beautiful), myself, and all of our voters....BIG UPS!!! lol 4real.

Wow. It still feels so surreal. God is truly in control. Wow. Wow. Freakin Wow.

This has really lifted my spirit in a major way. I am so grateful to see something like this during my life. Cause to tell the truth, I did not think that I would.

I know you have heard it before but when I think of all of the men and women who were beaten, starved, and cruely mistreated fighting to have this right...it REALLY MAKES ME PROUD!!

I no longer take voting for granted or feel that my vote does not count. God will show you they say...and He truly did. :D

Go Obama!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh yeah, check out Judges 4:6 -24 or however much you want to read!

Let me know how you are feeling people!!!

Peaces!!!!

What you gonna do!?

2008-10-30T15:37:00.001-07:00

I have been wanting to blog for a few days man.

Got a poem on my mind...

But I've been occupied trying to GET OVER THIS COLD!!! EH!

I am still blessed none the less.

Forgot about my library card....about to start checking out those good books! Knowledge the cheap way! :D

Mother's Bday is monday so time to travel! 4day weekend whoooo hoo! :)

Everybody...GO VOTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

Happy early halloweens! lol

I'm going to be andre 3000 tomorrow or...janet jackson! lol

Ralph's wisdom:

When you feel the impulse to be judgmental, let that be a cue for you to first be thankful. When you discover that you're focusing on what's wrong, use that as a reminder of all the many things that are right.

Immediately upon waking each morning, think of ten things you are grateful for at the moment. As you fall asleep at the end of the day, fill your thoughts with thankfulness for the good and valuable blessings in your life.

Give the power of your thoughts to the positive influences in your world, and they will become more influential. Remind yourself often of what works well, and you'll naturally find ways to make many other things work well.

The way to enjoy success is not to study failure. The way to experience success is to extend and expand the success you already know.

Gratitude is so powerful because it makes you so powerful. Gratitude puts you in a positive frame of reference within which many more positive things can happen.

Begin each day, end each day, and live each day with a sincerely thankful heart. And as each day passes, you'll have more and more for which to be thankful.
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Hard work is easy compared to the alternative. For the alternative is a life without meaningful accomplishment or fulfillment.

Effort can be difficult, time consuming and inconvenient. And yet, the rewards created by diligent, focused effort make all that effort well worth the trouble.

Effort brings lasting value out of troublesome situations. Effort puts your dreams into action and makes them real.

When you're wondering how to get what you want, the answer is usually simple. Get to work.
Life is always overflowing with abundance. Through your efforts you express that abundance in personally meaningful ways.

There is always work to be done for those who are willing to do it. Be willing, get to work, and enjoy the immense value that your efforts create.

-- Ralph Marston

Hope you all have a good weekend!

5x2 Lovekus...

2008-10-19T20:21:00.000-07:00

Haven't written any haikus in a bit, here ya go Rich!

Is this moment real?
You gaze into my eyes and
My breath disappears
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You inside of me
Filling me so completely
Dreams now appear real
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You're so beautiful
You're touch amazing to me
The freak emerges
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I melt onto you
Your life deep inside of me
Is this making love?
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Lips exploring me
Seems I waited forever
You touch me at last
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Fingers touch my hips
Anticipating, can't breathe
Rocky road ice cream
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Kinky bedroom games
Hand cuffs or chocolate syrup
We'll have it our way
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Beautiful music
You play me and I'll play you
Making love off key
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Human treasure hunt
Have to find the hidden key
Tracing my body
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We please to be pleased
Your pleasure exciting me
We come together

Hope you enjoyed! gotta get back into it! Much love!

Drank drank up in my cup...man hole up! Randomnesses...

2008-10-17T07:23:00.001-07:00

Wuzup, wuzup, WUZUPPPPPP!!!?? Lol!

Man, I am sooo sleepy.
Still climbing this slope to reach my inspirational peak.
I had stopped reading my daily inspirational emails...mistake number 1.

Here's an excerpt from Simple Truths Newsletter:

William James, over a century ago, said, “The greatest discovery of this generation is that a human being can alter their life by altering their attitude.”
I believe this with all my heart, and over the years have seen it happen countless times. What most people fail to realize is that your attitude not only impacts your happiness and your success, it also can impact the happiness and success of all the people around you...your family, your friends, and your peers at work. Attitudes truly are contagious, and from time to time we need to ask ourselves...
“Is mine worth catching?”

So.....is it!?

I'm honest enough to say I know mine isn't right now. :(

But....IT'S TIME FOR A CHANGE! :D

Our emotions are powerful motivators, and more than almost anything else in our lives they will drive our behavior. Sometimes our greatest challenge is to get inside our own heads to understand what makes us tick. Why do we feel and behave the way we do?
Highly motivated, positive people are focused. The mind is clear, and energy levels are high. Also, many things can hold you back and prevent you from becoming all you can be. One of those things is...Emotional Baggage.
I know two family members who were best friends, but several years ago, one reminded the other of something that had happened thirty years earlier. One thing led to another and, you know what, they haven't spoken since.
Anger or resentment is like a cancer, and when you let it go untreated, it will put an invisible ceiling on your future. You don't know it...but it does.
William Ward identified the cure when he said, “Forgiveness is the key that unlocks the handcuffs of hate.”
Those are powerful words, and I know from personal experience...forgiveness works. A few times in my life I've been greatly wronged and taken advantage of. My first reaction, of course, was anger and resentment. I held it for awhile and felt my stomach tie up in knots, my appetite wane, and the joy slip out of my life. The quote from Ward provided the wake-up call I needed to forgive the person who had wronged me.....

Man have I been holding a grudge against some people for a while...another misss-take. I am letting things go though. :) Yay me.

Read this book about men who were sexually abused as children...wow. It's crazy how many women that I know have been sexually abused. But seldom do men talk about it. We have to speak on these things man. Silence is a deadly disease and will only continue the cycle.

My Mean moment:

To my ex....if you liked it then you should have put a ring on it! HA HA LOL! Yeah right...

Whyyyyyyy are girls so dumb???

RALMBO! Lol, ok that was mean. Let me stop.

Anyways...READY for the weekend yay! Thank God for weekends off!! Big ups! lol

The Secret Life of Bees....GOT to see it! Yes!

When I get back in shape I am going to take some Killah pix....YESSIR!!! ;)

I miss hitting the blogs like I used to....you know that thing called w-o-r-k...lol.

Words from my boy Ralph:

Missed opportunity

It's frustrating when you realize you've missed a big opportunity. Though you cannot go back and change the past, there is something you can do.

You can choose to transform that regret for a missed opportunity into enthusiasm and commitment for seizing a new, even better opportunity. You can decide to look forward, realizing the importance of what you missed, determined to find another path to the same kind of fulfillment.

Don't be envious of those who had the foresight to grab hold of the opportunity that you missed. Instead, be positively inspired by the success they have enjoyed.

Now it is your time to move toward a similar success. Whatever may have or have not happened in the past, now is the time to act.

Specific opportunities will come and go. And new opportunities are always available to those who are willing to do the difficult and challenging work they demand.

Choose to make your own best opportunity from the way things are right now. With your focused commitment, truly great things are possible.

Sooo...Do something! :)

The results you achieve are not based on what you plan to do or what you say you'll do. Your results come from what you actually do.

The rationalizations and excuses you make will not add any value or quality to your life. Your actions are what truly make a difference.

To get where you wish to go requires more than just talking about it. To get where you wish to go requires focused, sustained effort.

And the great thing is, you're perfectly capable of making whatever effort is necessary. You must simply choose to actually do it.

No one can reach real fulfillment on your behalf. The life you experience is the life you create for yourself.

There are so many possibilities to choose from, and so many opportunities to make life great through the actions you take. Now is the moment to actually do it.

-- Ralph Marston

Good words Ralph, good words.

Another craaazy one from PDiddy lol:

Hope you enjoyed to post! Have a good weekend!

Note to Self: Are you Living or merely Existing...?

2008-10-10T08:02:00.001-07:00

Ok, I am going to make this post as honest as I can. I am really disappointed in myself right now. REALLY disappointed and it's sad to feel this way.

Was reading some of the quotes I have included on my blog over time. I may need to visit those one a week or something. I feel like I am afraid to participate in my life.
Unworthy.
And at this very moment as I think about it all, s-i-c-k. Been really selfish and egotistical in a way.
Don't get me wrong, I am quite blessed. That much I do know. I have just let fear get the best of me and I resent myself for it.

All of these talents and I am barely using them at all. And I know if God took them away I would just about go crazy. I watch people on stage and my heart beams with admiration but I am doing not a thing to get back up there myself. Writing a little bit, but that is about it.

Feel like I am just floating thru life, not leaving any footprints for my neice or anyone to follow. I really feel sick about it. Need to learn how to forgive myself and stop being stuck in my yesterdays. Old habits and mentalities are hard to replace. It's sounding like another poem...lol.

So the question is what am I going to do about it?

1. Stop being afraid of myself
2. Stop being afraid to fail
3. Have faith that whatever may come, God will see me through
4. Find a church that I truly feel at home with and become involved...voluteering, choir ect.
5. Find a Chamber of Commerce/civic club to join
6. Attend free (cause I'm broke! lol) artistic events to network
7. Find an artistic organization to volunteer with
8. Attend these dance classes that I have already paid for....that's right ALREADY paid and I haven't went back..
9. Create a new workout schedule and stick to it
10. Create a Bible study schedule and stick to it
11. Create a singing/dancing/keyboard/writing schedule and STICK TO IT
12. Learn to TRULY believe in God and therefore myself.
13. Save money to attend grant writing and event planning classes
14. #1-13 = GET INVOLVED!!

Three good ones from Ralph that spoke to me:

Living possibility

Set your life in motion by reaching deep inside. Touch your most wonderful feeling and peacefully surrender as it fills your awareness.

Life originates in this moment and it flows from the most honest and authentic experience of who you are. Whatever drives you at the deepest level is what enables you to move forward.

Think your best thoughts and feel your most intense feelings of how beautiful and fulfilling life can be. Rise above the meaningless distractions and choose to heed your very purpose.

The thoughts you have, turn into actions, and the actions turn into accomplishments. Now is when you begin to make it happen.

The world you envision is longing for you to bring it to life. Breathe in, right now, all the goodness you have ever known, and see clearly that anything is possible.

Reveal more fully in every moment the living possibility that is you. And fill your world with the best life you can imagine.

Ease your burdens

Don't make life's difficulties even more difficult by filling your mind with resentment. Instead, ease your burdens by choosing to be truly thankful for them.

If you feel resentment starting to take hold, stop and consider this. There's nothing to be gained by bringing yourself down over what has already happened.

Use the occasion to remember all the things for which you can be thankful. Rise to the challenge of seeing the positive aspects that are surely there within any troubling situation.

Holding on to resentment will drain valuable energy away from you. Gratitude, on the other hand, can fill you with fresh, new positive energy.

Choose to see the value in your situation. Choose to look forward with confidence instead of looking backward with resentment.

Right now, there is much for which to be thankful. Focus on the positive possibilities, and find real joy in steadily bringing them to life.

One small thing

One good thing naturally leads to another. So go ahead, right now, and do one good thing.
Just one simple positive step is enough to create some solid momentum. Go ahead and take that small step.

The challenges of life may seem overwhelming. Get yourself moving, just a little bit at first, in a positive direction, and those challenges will suddenly feel a lot smaller.

You don't get to the top of the mountain in one enormous leap. You get there one small step at a time, and from the moment you begin the view just keeps getting better and better.

What one small thing could you choose to set the tone for the rest of this day, or even for the rest of your life? There are so many possibilities available to you.

Move just a little bit in the direction that you know is good and right for you. Once you get going, you won't want to stop.

-- Ralph Marston

This is my first small step.

Quotes of the moment:

*Forget goals. Value the process. -Jim Bouton
*Don’t ever promise more than you can deliver, but always deliver more than you promise. -Lou Holtz
*Time gives good advice. - Maltese Proverb
*Pessimism wilts everything around it. -Michael Levine
*You can’t expect to win unless you know why you lose. -Benjamin Lipson
*If you don’t know what you want, you won’t recognize it when you get it. Author unknown
*Worse than being a quitter is the one who is afraid to begin. Lord, grant me the courage to believe in myself and the ability to focus on what I can do, not what I can't do.
*It is better to try and fail than to fail because you are afraid to try. Lord, grant me the courage to live my life to the fullest.
*Get rid of the excuses for not doing those things that make you happy. Lord, Your peace within me calms my spirit and opens my heart to recognize the joy of this day.
*If today's burden is too heavy, it may be because you have added on yesterday's problems or the fears of tomorrow's problems. Lord, help me to keep my focus and not take on that which is impossible to do anything about anyway.

On to other news....HOMECOMING GAME is tomorrow...YEAH!!!

And blogger is getting on my nerves. Keeps reformatting my post dang it!

Have a good weekend folks!

DO IT PEOPLE! VOTE!! :) ARE U REGISTERED?

2008-10-06T10:16:00.000-07:00

If you are not stepping up, shut it up. I'm just saying...

A Word from our PDIDDY Sponsors...

LOL!!! That boy is a mess!! But it made me think though. 4real.

Thought this fit a little with the voting issue so here we go from your boy Ralph!

Do something about it

When something is troubling you, make the commitment to change it. Then begin to act on that decision right away.

Some of the influences in your life are under your control, and many of those influences are outside your control. Yet you can always decide upon and put into action a positive response to anything.

Don't sit around being amazed at how miserable you are and at how unfairly life is treating you. Instead, be amazed at how quickly and effectively you can do something about it.

Don't complain to others about how tough it is for you. Instead, inspire them with your positive and enthusiastic attitude and actions.

When the world feels all wrong, that's a valuable signal. It's your way of telling yourself to get going and make a difference.

You have plenty of good options if you'll simply make the effort to find them. Pick the best one, get busy putting it into action, and take positive control of your world.

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Let your enthusiasm show

Enthusiasm costs you absolutely nothing and requires no special skills. It is yours the moment you choose to embrace it.

When you do, your world changes. The problems turn into opportunities and the challenges become fields upon which you can create new value.

Enthusiasm infuses you with a heightened sense of purpose. Enthusiasm provides you with a beneficial immunity against any setbacks that may come.

Enthusiasm is contagious and it draws other people to you. Because when you're wrapped up in enthusiasm, it feels great.

Somewhere inside you there is an authentic sense of enthusiasm, eager to come to life. Let it out and let it show.

Allow enthusiasm to infect your attitude, and spread it to those around you. Delight in the feeling as it pushes you forward.

-- Ralph Marston

So use that enthusiasm and get out and vote!!

Much Love folks!

On My Heart...

2008-09-29T12:23:00.000-07:00

Inspired by Lions, Tigers, and Bears

You say you love

You show you care

Years of documented proof

Yet I'm scared

To fall in love with you

Afraid to become trapped again

Swear I have a backbone

But it melts when you enter my presense

You touch me and my pride drops to my knees

Feels like I can't breathe, can barely speak

Trying to control heavy breathing

What I feel trumps my previous realities

Choking my doubts and fears

Suffocating all reasoning

Anxiety threatening to weaken me

Cause life isn't as easy as it seems

Clinching for dear life trying to grab a hold of my sanity

Cause I swear I'm going crazy

Over you

Get it Together Girl!

2008-09-25T14:28:00.000-07:00

Hello people! Feeling a bit sensual today...lovin it! lol
Wrote a poem about it. Like to hear it, here it go!
Lol, jk. Will be posting it soon.

Thanks for the love on my last post! Sending it right back to you!
I got some setting of priorities that I need to do with my life. Feel like I am just floating by alot of the time.
That's a negative.

Don't really have much to say today...just wanted to say what's up!

Quote for the day:
If today's burden is too heavy, it may be because you have added on yesterday's problems or the fears of tomorrow's problems. Lord, help me to keep my focus and not take on that which is impossible to do anything about anyway.

Priorities

You've had many successes in your life and you'll have many more. In matters large and small you have a history of achieving what you have truly chosen to achieve.
The question to focus upon is this. What will you now choose to achieve?

How will you make the most meaningful and fulfilling use of the time and resources available to you? Which of the many opportunities will you now decide to follow?

You have a way of reaching those goals that you've authentically committed to reach. When something is important enough to you, when it is a priority, you know how to make it happen.

So what are the priorities you choose to have on this day? Upon what will you focus your considerable powers of achievement?

Whatever you make into a priority will surely become an achievement. Choose your priorities today with care, because you are indeed choosing how your life will soon be.
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Knowledge is one of the greatest treasures you can ever have. Each day is filled with countless opportunities to obtain more of it and to make good use of it, and no one can ever take it away from you.
In fact, the more you share what you know the more valuable that knowledge becomes to you. In knowledge there is great and continuously growing power.

Do not be content to hear secondhand from others how the world works. Take the initiative and make the effort to learn for yourself, and gain real, useful knowledge.

The amount and quality of knowledge you have will determine to a large extent the quality of your life. When you know what you need to learn, and when you know how to find it, anything becomes possible.

You already have great knowledge and you have access to much, much more. Achievement comes from using your knowledge to drive your actions toward the goals you have chosen.

Every day, every situation, every experience is a learning opportunity. Make good, purposeful use of what you know and learn, and there is no limit to what you can achieve.

-- Ralph Marston

Have a good one!

We made it, we made it

2008-09-17T09:48:00.000-07:00

SO Ike came and did the fool Saturday morning. Nature don't be playin! Do you hear me!?

Ya girl was paranoid! Oooo wee.
When I think about the aftermath of the hurricane, the song We made it comes to mind by Sunni Patterson.

Talking about forced relaxation. Been reading and sleeping for like 4 days straight...sad. That's so funny cause Don told me to take a step back on my last post. Well thanks Don! lol, jk bro.

Just made me realize what we take for granted these days. Like water, electricity and, food.

I am blessed that my apartment and car is still in good condition unlike some people. :(

You are in my prayers where ever you are.

So people please take a second and be grateful for all that you have. Because it is not always guaranteed. 4real.

The 'unofficial' song for Houston after Hurricane Ike! ;)

Just found out my grandfather is back in the hospital. So please pray for him. Got me feeling bad. :(

Thinking about teaching....what do you think??

May go voluteer somewhere to hand out food when I get off. We will see.

Words from Mr. Ralph...

Purposeful Determination

What is the difference between desperation and determination? The difference comes from having a positive, meaningful direction.

The energy of desperation is wasted on self-pity and negativity. That can lead to destructive behavior, which only makes the sense of desperation worse.

Yet by choosing a positive orientation, you can always transform the self-defeating energy of your desperation into solid, potent determination. By applying that energy toward a positive purpose, you can make great and valuable improvements in your world.

If you become dismayed, discouraged or even desperate, recognize that there's a positive opportunity. For it signals that you are ready and willing to be genuinely determined.

And when determination fuels your actions, those actions bring real results. Persistence, effectiveness and power flow naturally and solidly from purposeful determination.

Just one step away from desperation is the energy of determination. Take that step, and put all that energy to good use.

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The Next Step

Adversity is only adversity. Choose not to make it anything more.

Adversity will affect the circumstances in which you live and work. Yet you do not have to let it affect who you are, or where you're headed, or what you're able to do.

Take note of the setbacks and adjust to them. But don't expand on them by making them a part of you.

Instead, use each instance of adversity as a reminder of why you have chosen to move in the direction you are moving. Use each setback as an opportunity to redouble your positive, forward-looking efforts.

Every day brings new value and new possibilities. There is always a way to take the next step forward on the path you have chosen.

Find that step today and take it. No mere circumstance can stop you from moving steadily and joyfully forward in the direction of your dreams.

-- Ralph Marston

Hope you all have been good these last few days! Peace out!

Sometimes I Feel...

2008-09-10T10:01:00.000-07:00

Peace is not a circumstance. Peace is a feeling, a powerful, wonderful and desirable feeling.

Peace does not depend on any particular set of conditions. It can be any place, at any time.

Remember how peace feels. And by so remembering, you make yourself available to peace.

Peace is what remains when you've surrendered your ego and your fears. Peace is always there, patiently waiting for you to turn your awareness toward it.

The same part of you that longs for peace is the part of you that experiences peace. It is not complicated and is as close as your next thought.

Think lovingly of how peace feels to you. And truly be at peace.

-- Ralph Marston

Peace is beginning to elude me...I need to regain perspective man... :(
This is kind of a testimony for me right about now:

Good and tired

Being tired from doing something feels a whole lot better than being tired of doing nothing. If you're going to be tired at the end of each day, then make it really count for something.
If you're weary, perhaps it's not because you're doing too much. Perhaps it's because you're not at all invested in what you're doing.

A difficult challenge that's aligned with your purpose will generate far more energy in you than an easy task that has no real meaning for you. You can accomplish much more when what you're accomplishing is what you care about.

When your body is tired, a good night's sleep will revive you. When you're spirit is weary, you'll need something more.

You have a unique voice and a unique purpose that are longing to be expressed. Start living that expression and you'll find an endless source of energy flowing through your life.

Get yourself good and tired with focused, disciplined work on a purpose that connects with who you truly are. And you'll find that each day you have even more energy than the day before.

-- Ralph Marston

Need to print this out and post it somewhere. Have a good day people.

Round 1...FIGHT!!

2008-09-08T16:22:00.000-07:00

Was having a music battle with a friend of mine...whooping that tail! lol
Anyway here are a few that I threw at em! Enjoy!

MAN I LOVE MUSIC!!! :)

Have a good one!

Ki...mo...no

2008-09-05T14:13:00.000-07:00

Thank God it's friday....about to go parrrtayyyy! Whoo!

So Muze has me looking at Kimono dresses and tops and pheening for one with no money! lol

*sighing*...one day...

My Ralph inspirations for today and the weekend!:

This day is yours to experience. This life is yours to live.
This world is a place in which you can act to make a positive, meaningful difference. This moment is one that's filled with possibilities.

It can often be difficult to make your way forward, and it is all too easy to lose sight of the unique and beautiful person you truly are. Take time to remember the best that is within you, and know that your authentic, miraculous life is stronger than any obstacle.

Choose to fill this day with your very own special expression of what it means to be alive. Right now is your opportunity to fulfill those yearnings that have always called to you.

You have the power to take any ordinary moment and put joy into it. Your happiness comes not from what you may seek to take away from life but from what you give, what you create, and what you share.

This is your moment to live with all the purpose and richness you can imagine. Realize that nothing is really holding you back, and make this the best day ever.

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Abundance and gratitude are inextricably linked. By living with gratitude, you open yourself to life's immense abundance.

If you are a little bit thankful for this, and a little thankful for that, just every so often, you'll have glimpses of abundance. When you enable and allow yourself to be continuously thankful for every big and little thing, your life will be immersed in abundance all the time.

It may seem strange to feel thankful for those events in your life that appear to be negative. Yet it is precisely by being thankful that you can identify the opportunities for transforming the setbacks and obstacles into successes.

You may not think it's worth the time and effort to be thankful for all the little, seemingly insignificant things in your life. However, without the little things there would be no big things.

Seek to develop a depth of gratitude by seizing every opportunity to be thankful. Make genuine gratitude a constant companion to who you are, in all that you do.

As your gratitude grows deeper and more all-encompassing, life's abundance shines more brilliantly for you. Be truly, constantly thankful, and there is no end to the level of abundance that you will experience.

-- Ralph Marston

Quotes for the day:

'All too often the difference between success and failure, progress and regress, happiness and depression--and, yes, balance and imbalance--is simply a matter of perspective.' -Paul Wilson

'Circumstances are the rulers of the weak; they are but the instruments of the wise.' -Samuel Lover

Have a good one ya'll! :)

Watch What You Ask 4...

2008-09-02T17:00:00.000-07:00

Ok! Soooooo I am on Andre a bit....just a little bit! Lol.

Hope everyone had a wonderful Labor Day! I moved to a new place...THANK YOU GOD! SUCH a blessing. Watched Idlewild for the hundredth time. Lol, and yes I fell into lust with Andre yet again. *sigh* lol.

Watch what you ask for man....been dreaming about my 'dream' man, trying to change my perception of guys...and then my homeboy lets me know that he wants the kid. For real, for real cause I am the $%$#! ;) lol.
Anyway, I am like WHAT!? I ain't ready for this man. Even though he is a sweet heart my heart is still quite buised so...no can do right about now....oh welley. I don't heal by jumping into something new. Don't know about you...

Ralph inspirations of note today:

If you find it difficult to deal with where you are, look ahead toward where you're going. Keep yourself focused on the goal at the end of the road, and you'll find the strength to move steadily down that road.

When you continue looking ahead, even the difficult steps will seem lighter. The burdens of the moment become much more bearable when you know there is a purpose behind them.

Your dreams can pull you toward them if you'll give those dreams a prominent place in your heart and your mind. Look ahead toward where you intend to go, and you'll find that each challenge makes you stronger.

When your eye is on the goal, the distractions won't be nearly so distracting. Your efforts will gain the immense power of focus when you're always clearly aware of where you're headed.

Your time, your energy, and your resources will get used no matter which direction you are looking. By choosing to look ahead, you get the highest return for the efforts you invest in your life.

Look ahead, toward the place you most want to be. The more you look, the faster you'll move forward.

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Life will challenge you regularly. Embrace that challenge with a thankful heart and a creative, resourceful mind.

Each challenge has within it great strength. Go out to meet the challenge, work your way steadily through it, and that strength becomes yours.

Challenge can be painful, inconvenient, embarrassing, tedious and time consuming. And that same challenge also gives life much of its meaning, flavor and fulfillment.

One of the kindest things you can do for someone else is to offer a respectful, meaningful challenge to that person. One of the smartest things you can do for yourself is to take on higher and higher levels of challenge.

Challenge sharpens your priorities and magnifies your performance. Lives of greatness positively thrive on challenge.

Choose to see each challenge as the opportunity for growth, satisfaction and achievement that it is. The world is overflowing with challenges, and inside each challenge you'll find truly immense value.

-- Ralph Marston

LOVE this quote:

If the world is cold, make it your business to build fires. -Horace Traubel

Let's make it happen! Have a good one!

Step in the Name of Love

2008-08-28T12:48:00.000-07:00

I am soooooo in love with music right now! I am gonna marry music........and Andre 3000 too! lol

This is today's Daily Inspiration (and another from a few days ago) and I just wanted to share:

A thousand disappointments in the past cannot equal the power of one positive action right now. Go ahead and go for it.

If you've previously told yourself that it can't be done, this is the moment to change your assumption. When you can dream it, imagine it and visualize it, you can do it.

Instead of making excuses, make some progress. Instead of looking back with regret, step forward with enthusiasm.

Choose to define yourself based on the person you know you can become. Choose to see your life in terms of the best of what is possible.

If you focus too much on the past, you'll be held back by limitations that may no longer even exist. Instead, look forward with positive expectation, and you'll find yourself quickly moving in a forward direction.

A new, fulfilling reality is calling to you. Step forward right now, and begin to make it happen.

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Be slow to take offense if indeed you ever take offense at all. For being offended gains you nothing and can cost you much.

Have patience with the mistakes and follies of others. Instead of harsh criticism, offer genuinely helpful feedback so that everyone benefits.

Forgive early and forgive often. Set yourself free from the heavy burden of resentment, and move quickly beyond the pain.

Learn from your regrets, yet do not punish yourself with them. Today is a new day with more possibilities than ever before.

Be truly thankful for all that is, and for your opportunity to experience it. You'll discover great stores of goodness and value when you simply have faith that they're there.

Live beyond the petty, fleeting concerns, and focus on the profound and beautiful substance of your life. There is so very much good that you can always do with it.

-- Ralph Marston

I really need to work on doing this. Hope it helps you bust a move too!

Took tomorrow off so type to you on Tuesday peeps! ;)

4 day weekend for me!! Weeee! :)

Have a good one folks!!

Just Believe

2008-08-25T10:45:00.000-07:00

Tired of these negative feelings and self inflicted misery
The I hate yous and that n*gga lieing mentality
Expecting the worse and seeing it with my own two eyes
Wanting to believe in you
Whom I cannot see
A man who has yet to materalize
A beautiful brown piece of heaven
With a smile bright as the morning sunshine
Just need to have a little faith

Want to believe in you but it seems I can’t
Cause I’m afraid
Afraid of your touch
Your kiss
Your glance
Afraid that you will do me like he
and he
and he did
Tired of the ‘oh you were such a good woman’ apologies
Tired of the lies and excuses
Tired of all of these words cause they are useless
Looking for some follow through
That will follow me to you
Or you to me
Wanting a piece of this imagined reality
Of you
My stand up guy
My hero

With no limit to your ceiling
No limit to this life you are building
No limit to what you can achieve
No limits to your belief
In you
In me
In us

I want to believe that you are out there
But I'm afraid and it hurts
Looking towards the future with the past riding my back like a curse
And it's hard to believe in something that I have not known to exist
Someone who knows what it means to be in tune with his spirit
Someone just for me
Someone tired of the games
Someone human
Someone true

So please excuse me for being a little uptight
Yes I’m feeling lonely inside
But I'm too afraid to open up and feel
And allow someone in to fill this empty space
Crying out with every ounce of my being
Or so it seems cause my mind won't cooperate with a thing I say
I loathe hypocrites
Yet looks like I am a hypocrite today
So what do I do?

They say all things are possible
Should you believe
So I guess this is my battle
It is all on me
To let go of the past
Forget what they've done or didn't do
And visualize something my eyes cannot see
Step out with faith
Allow myself to feel
Feel your presence
Your magnificence
Your embrace
Allow myself to feel you
And know that one day God will bring you to me
All I have to do is believe

Something on My Mind

2008-08-22T14:21:00.000-07:00

My third post in 2 days. Wow, lol.

Anyways- My quote for the moment:

The easiest way for me to fall in love with a man is for him to show me that he is human. -Me :)

Have a good weekend! And go take a swim or something!! lol

Peace.

My Cutie Pieee

2008-08-21T15:58:00.000-07:00

Second post of the day!
So I just saw Stomp The Yard....yes, finally! And this man here is my new sweetie pie oooo weeezey!!

Dang it boy....If you don't put on some clothes...

Get away from my man!!

Oooo weeee are you looking at little old me??

*blushing*

Aight that's my little tribute to a beauuuutiful brown skinned brotha! Peace out!!

Keeping it Positive

2008-08-21T15:14:00.000-07:00

Having a heck of a time changing my thought process to viewing the world as positive rather than negative so just thought I would share this with you. Even though I didn't write it, I believe it for most others workin on believing it for myself.

You were born with potential
You were born with goodness and trust
You were born with ideals and dreams
You were born with greatness
You were born with wings
You are not meant for crawling, so don't.
You have wings
Learn to use them, and fly.

-Rumi

Applicable Quotes:

"A man cannot be comfortable without his own approval" -Mark Twain

“Eternity is not the hereafter…this is it. If you don’t get it here, you won’t get in anywhere.”
-Joseph Campbell

Forgiving Me

2008-08-15T16:37:00.000-07:00

I Forgive You

For staying with you when I felt like you never truly loved or respected me or yourself
For staying around when I felt you would one day grow a back bone and show others that you deserve to be treated with respect
For expecting you to understand on your own
For expecting you to stop being so defensive
For expecting you to to know how to treat me as a lady
For trying to love you enough for the both of us
For expecting you to be a man when to me it seems you never were
For expecting you to be a man with childish moments when it seemed you were more like a child with grown up man moments
For being angry at you because you couldn't take it...or whatever the reason(s) may be
You are only human
For allowing myself to feel sorry for you
For turning that feeling into an action of support and love and not realizing that it would not be enough
For being pissed the h%ll off that you shut me out after it all...when you knew that is the second worse way to hurt me second to cheating or laying a hand...
For feeling bad that I had and have these thoughts because to me they are the truth
Maybe they will change one day...
That being said,
I forgive you, yes me for running from these feelings when it's quite clear that they remain true to me.

-FORGIVENESS IS NOT SOMETHING WE DO FOR OTHER PEOPLE IT IS SOMETHING WE DO FOR OURSELVES.

Random-ness-es

2008-08-10T14:30:00.000-07:00

So I had a dream the other night and a few of my exes were in it....what in the?

Spent time with my friends this weekend had a GOOD time. :)

Girls are so dumb and so are guys. (shaking my head)

Why would a guy think I would want to talk to him if he talks about other females (or people) like they are less than....BIG DUMMY.

I want a rebound!!! Pleaseeeee ooooooooooo!! Ok Ok Imma be cool...(ICE COLD! lol)

Being the better person is sooooo difficult. I must be a strong woman.

RIP Bernie Mac and Isaac Hayes.

I am actually really bonding with females now....wow.

Being considerate in a relationship is QUITE important, and so is being a gentleman and having respect for self- if you don't know about it....GO LEARN...right now!

I'm feeling so much right now....may God guide me.

Exercised the other day, about to get back on it....Yeaaahhhhhh!

Taming your ego is a HARD process!!!! Man man man.

Shout out to my blog family! Love ya'll!

Like Wayne says....'I'm me I'm me I'm me.....So Who are you??'

Gonna miss him man.

Peace.

Whoa Momma!

2008-08-06T13:05:00.000-07:00

Right now I feel really sullen and needy...like as far as God is concerned...like if I don't pray or something I am going to lose my mind. That's weird and scary. I am going to have to get on that.

Anyway since the single life has started again, I have guys approaching me (like they wouldn't! lol). I know DARN well I am not ready to get involved with anyone again and if I did...it would only be for one or two reasons (you know...).
I know what is right and what is wrong so I am chilling for now.

My question to you is, what is good/bad about having a rebound relationship/relations?

Be honest.

Preciate ya!

Peace.

To Heal or Not to Heal...

2008-07-31T16:09:00.000-07:00

Sooo I have a few friends that are dealing with breakups and such (like myself) and I have heard several things. All guys lie and cheat no matter how much I improve on myself, they will still lie and cheat (which I still believe to some extent, sad I know). People saying they are tired of getting played for a fool. People saying they give up they quit and they want to close their heart up.
Man this is used to resinate so much with me a few years ago.
But I have grown SO much. I am so grateful for it. Thank you God.

Don't get me wrong, I still have my days when I wanted to rip his throat out and I still get angry.
But the level of stubborness towards being angry and resentful isn't at the same level that is was before. Instead of running to that dark and comfortable place...Isn't it wierd how habits that are uncomfortable can become 'comfortable' because you are used to them?

Anyway, instead of running to that angry place, I have reached for a healing place. And that mess is HARD. But I said I was going to grow the $#^& up and step into the place that God wants me to be in. That is a place of healing. He never said it would be easy, and it is not. However, when I began to really look at myself and my past relationship I realize there are certain things I wasn't getting on a basic level. I can't date the same time of guy anymore, his mind set has to be on a higher and deeper level. I now appreciate men who understand me (and women) just on a basic level. Who don't go crazy when they don't understand, who take it just as it is if they never figure it out. Lol. But seriously, I can truly respect that. Maturity is so under rated. Just like people think someone has book sense, common sense comes along with it....NOT SO PEOPLE. Lol.

Anyways(again, lol), seems like I deepened the womb would I would get angry and stay angry after a break up. Not looking for a solution but just looking at the negatives, in the guy and myself. Don't get me wrong I have looked at those this time also, but that is not my dwelling place. My dwelling place is in a place that allows me to heal and open my mind to be optimistic for the next time God brings someone into my life. Also to know what to look for that I may have OVER LOOKED before.
Seems like I was too nice this time around and dealt with things I should not have put up with for so long. But that's aight, lessons learned...Time to get this application together and make sure my stats match the stats I'm looking for in my next starting player....lol!

Peace ya'll.

It's a real post ya'll!

2008-07-22T16:00:00.000-07:00

Ego: the one of the three divisions of the psyche in psychoanalytic theory that serves as the organized conscious mediator between the person and reality especially by functioning both in the perception of and adaptation to reality.

Been doing a little reading about this. A little writing too.

Wanting to live my purpose in life by letting my ego i.e. my perception or worry of other's possible perception of me being less that I want it to be. Yeah, I'm a big girl and I can admit it. ;)

Feel like in my last relationship I allowed my ego and sense of determination (not quiting) allow me to stay in a situation that wasn't healthy for me. It's hard to deal with but I am growing from it. As I should. I now clearly see what it is that I will expect and will not tolerate from the next 'opportunity' that comes along.

Anyway, been reading this Wayne W. Dyer book. You should check it out, the man is a beast! lol, seriously (http://www.drwaynedyer.com/). He talks about living your life on purpose and how this can be achieved by giving your life away to others in service. Says to fall in love with what we are doing. Not expecting any benefits. That our purpose is connected to our source (spirit) which is not ego based. He says to use your talents and desires in love to help others and not let ego manifested emotions such as fear of failure or disappointing others stop you. He says to ask ourselves, How may I use my talents and desires to serve? and the universe will answer back, How may I serve you?

Mann!!! That's what I am talking about.

He also talks about how we teach others to treat us. I was like no he didn't! But he said we teach others how to treat us by the way that we treat ourselves. How we allow others to disrespect and demean us and we react by disconnecting from our Source by responding in humiliation, blame, anxiety, anger ect. This is all so true and deserves to be considered.

On it I tell ya!

But that's all for now...still have more reading to do.

Oh yeah, Dark Knight was good but I liked Wanted better....just my opinion.

Live life Through Love and On Purpose!

Peace!

It's like a druggg....

2008-07-21T18:51:00.000-07:00

Hey hey...feeding one of my many addictions....
Dance.
Watching show after show....lol, love it.

Went to see Wanted....it was GREAT
Now about to go see Dark Knight....heard it was better than Wanted...we will see

I really have more to say, but I'm quite sleepy.

Feeling a blessing coming...Lord please....If it's Your will and it happens...I think I am gonna scream! Ha ha!

Have a good evening everyone.

Speaking of easy breathing...

2008-07-15T16:28:00.000-07:00

This brother is FIIIIINE.

Whew. I'm just sayin.

Peace out!

Easy Breathing...

2008-07-10T14:07:00.000-07:00

I am feeling SO good right now.
I breathe in and tears of joy fall out.
God this feels so wonderful.
Thank you so much.
Feels like a Jill Scott song.
Ha!

That's all for now....lol.

Peace.

Reaching out to my blog fam...

2008-06-27T12:10:00.000-07:00

How am I feeling right about now?

Motivated
Stimulated
Self conscious
Sad
Hopeful...

I need some inspiration people......leave me a line or two or three!!
Thanks!!!

Rock a bye baby...

2008-06-24T18:28:00.000-07:00

Man I am sooooooooooooooo sleeeeeeeeeepyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!

......Lord I need a breakthrough!!!!!!
Please?
(I mean You know if You would like to give me one. Lol.)

Ya'll heard about those girls that made a pact to get pregnant. WHAT KINDA MESS is that!!??
DO ya'll have jobs? A house? A car? I sure hope so....

Anyway, hope I make it home safely. :)

Ya'll have a good evening!

Good words.

2008-06-19T15:51:00.000-07:00

Just read this and had to share:

'It's not if someone loves you, but how they treat you that counts.'

Hmmmmm. I like. :)

I Want to Hop on the Beach!!

2008-06-19T12:39:00.000-07:00

I just want to go somewhere where I can breathe some warm healing heavenly sunshine in and replace this sorrow that I am feeling

Ahhh man.................I WANT TO GO TO THE BEACH DANG IT!!

I was talking to my homeboy yesterday and he said it sounded like I was doing some poetry. LOL! I had to change my speech then. lol that is a trip.

To my fellow texans....and everybody else...
HAPPY JUNETEENTH! :D

Dracula's Wedding- Outkast

You're all i've ever wanted, but i'm terrified of you

My castle may be haunted, but i'm terrified of you

I've cast my spell on millions, but i'm terrified of you

Baby i do this from the ceiling, but i'm terrified of you

[bridge]I wait my whole life to bite the right one

Then you come along and that freaks me out

So i'm frightened..(oh!).....Dracula's wedding

I've never ran from no one, but i'm terrified of you

See my heartbeat is a slow one, but i'm terrified of you

I've been around for ages, but i'm terrified of you

Put my fang across the stage, but yet i'm terrified of you....

I am SOOOOOOO feeling this right about now...lol

I may be thinking a little too much of myself right now but uh...

What are you really afraid of ????

Lol. (Inside joke :) )

Enough about my crazy mind set right now. Have a lovely day people!